My Father was murdered yesterday

I'm beyond devastated.
L'hôpital Européen in Marseilles/France destroyed
3 lives, a family.
Stole everything from him and from us.
How will i go on living knowing that my Father was
Murdered, that he's been in death row for 3 months in that nightmarish place? How will i keep on living remembering the moral torture we've been through in this place?
His eyes filled with fear, will keep haunting me...
Everyday i look for him and i have to remember he was killed against his will against his family's will.
The Jordan you knew before died on the same day.